Day 6

Day 6/Meal 1 - Sweet Chili Thai Shrimp Wrap

Erik and I made wraps that had sweet chili thai shrimp, red onion, red pepper, and cheese. It was very good. I had 2 small wraps. When I was done eating, I wasn't sure if I was full or not. It also wasn't "what I wanted" but I am not going to turn down eating the same thing as Erik to eat something weird for a main meal LOL.

Since I wasn't entirely full after, and was craving this cinnamon bun so I ate it. It probably made a me a little more full than I needed to be, but it has kept me full longer than usual. We are at 11:30 AM and I am starting to get hungry now at 6:15PM.

Today I put on Jeans straight out of the dryer and they fit, so I suppose that means I haven't gained a huge amount of weight over the last 6 days. I also might be crazy but I think under my chin is also slimming up. Still conflicted if I should weigh in after the first week is done or not.

Day 6/Meal 2 - Lasagna

A piece of lasagna. I only started getting hungry around 6 pm... and then finally ate about 8pm. In those two hours I wasn't starving, and thinking compulsively about food - I actually sort of forgot about it. This lasagna was delish. I feel sort of guilty because I always eat my full portion. I ate all of my shrimp wraps, and all of my cinnamon bun, and all of my lasagna so it's making me feel like I am not listening closely enough to my hunger cues. I'm not leaving one bite behind either, which signifies you having power over the food, not the other way around. After this I ate one or two marshmallows, and a handful of caramel corn. But I had no compulsion whatsoever to finish off the ziploc bag of either that I had with me. In fact, inside my desk right now is Mini cheese ritz crackers, caramel corn, oatmeal cookies, salt and vinegar chips, riesens,  and marshmallows, and in my lunch bag is a chocolate bar. I am surrounded by all this food that I could have at any time... but I don't want it. My usual jam would be deciding is today a 'good day' or a 'bad day' if it was a bad day, then I would bring an entire bag of chips, a couple of chocolate bars, and other junk food, and no normal food, and sit at my desk and compulsively eat it all until I was over full. And right now, I feel like each day is a 'normal day' and I have all this stuff here, but my day doesn't surround binge eating it all. I actually looked at the salt and vinegar chips and scrunched my nose up and I thought ugh I really don't want a strong vinegar taste in my mouth right now. I don't remember the last time I have done something like that. I feel like my meals are gravitating towards being more normal... ex. supper foods for supper (pizza, lasagna) instead of like cookies, but I do for sure feel like I need to have something sweet after every meal to feel psychologically satisfied which I am learning is even more important than physical satisfaction. If mentally you are left wanting more, you WILL ignore your fullness level, and indulge regardless. I do feel like I am running out of treats around the house though, which may lead to accidental restriction.

My stomach has felt a bit upset all day... thought it was the shrimp, then I had coffee today for the first time in 5 days, and thought it was the coffee, and now I feel like the lasagna is also contributing. Hm.

Day 6/Meal 3 - Spring Rolls

When I got home, Erik just started making spring rolls. They sounded good to me. I have no idea how many I ate, and that is super freeing because on WW I would be counting every single one and deciding if every bite was worth it. We ate and enjoyed them together which was so nice.  I did eat them slowly because they were piping hot. I felt full after eating them. I was sort of wanting something sweet so I brought a chocolate bar over, and gave my permission to eat it... but I realized I didn't want it. I felt not full, not hungry, just perfect and peaceful and I decided that I didn't want to change how good I felt, so I didn't eat the chocolate bar. Now that, is saying something!!