Day 15
Day 15/Tea -
I started my day again with vanilla rooibos tea, and vanilla creamer. It was delicious. Often when I wake up I am not sure if I hungry or not, so I sip tea for an hour or so, and wait for my hunger cues.
Day 15/Meal 1 - White bakery bread with avocado, the other with peanut butter and honey.
I wasn't sure I was hungry when I started eating but I
last ate yesterday so breakfast is always good. I ate half the avocado
slice because the avocado wasn't very good quality and all of the peanut
butter honey slice it was so delicious!!! Right now I don't feel full I
don't think but I feel good satisfied. I also am drinking rooibos tea
with creamer which is amazing. 🙌🏻💚 I'm feeling good about this
process and I know I can fix my food relationship and be happy with my
relationship with food. The hardest part is the beginning and I've
already learned so much.
Day 15/Meal 2 - Spaghetti with fresh Parmesan
Loved making spaghetti this morning. On ww I would weight out the spaghetti, measure a cup of super boring plain sauce and measure out fake parm and would usually not add meat to mine to lower the points. This time... I chose to add garlic and onion and red peppers, added a 4 cheese Classico sauce, mixed the pasta in with the sauce and mixed it around and used fresh Parmesan!! Amazing. I was starving when I ate this. I was a 2, and after dessert I've an 8.
Day 15/Dessert - 2 sugar cookies, a mini donut and a wunderbar.
I struggled with guilt while eating this. This is how it happened. You need to give yourself options while on IE because you never know what you're going to feel like eating. During my meal I craved the wunderbar. While going to grab it I saw all the other stuff I brought and told myself I would just take a bite of a couple of things. I had 2 cookies and a mini donut. Then I told myself I didn't deserve to have the chocolate bar too because that's excessive. Then I told myself no, it's fine. It's ok I probably won't finish it. I ate 3/4 and thought I should stop cause I was feeling full. I put the 1/4 away. Then couldn't stop thinking about it and ate it. So clearly I have a lot of work to do. I'm in the initial stages and am learning how to interact with my 'danger' foods and sometimes multiple at once. It's okay. I'm human. So what I ate 3 treats instead of one. Does that make me less of a person? Is it going to make me gain weight and in turn make me less of a person? No. no it's not so I can chill. I also don't feel sick or overfull at all.
Day 15/Snack - Cake
See this right here is intuitive eating. I missed my friends birthday on Monday and she brought me a small piece of cake. I am not going to say no to that! I don't have to! Yesterday I ate a small treat someone brought into work, and the day before I accepted a piece of licorice offered to me which is huge because I turned down everything offered to me at work for the last 3 years. When they offered I froze... I was SO USED to saying no I almost did and then was like yes... just say yes it's fine. I often would turn food down at the office just to binge on it when everyone left even if it wasn't good. None of that anymore!
Day 15/Meal 3 - Grilled cheese and salt and vinegar chips.
At 2:30 am I was starving. Old me would go to bed starving.
New me was like my tummy says it's hungry and needs food so that's what
I'm going to give it. So I had a salami grilled cheese and salt and
vinegar chips. I left the crusts and some chips -- leaving some chips is a big deal!
Day 15/Meal 1 - White bakery bread with avocado, the other with peanut butter and honey.
Day 15/Meal 2 - Spaghetti with fresh Parmesan
Loved making spaghetti this morning. On ww I would weight out the spaghetti, measure a cup of super boring plain sauce and measure out fake parm and would usually not add meat to mine to lower the points. This time... I chose to add garlic and onion and red peppers, added a 4 cheese Classico sauce, mixed the pasta in with the sauce and mixed it around and used fresh Parmesan!! Amazing. I was starving when I ate this. I was a 2, and after dessert I've an 8.
Day 15/Dessert - 2 sugar cookies, a mini donut and a wunderbar.
I struggled with guilt while eating this. This is how it happened. You need to give yourself options while on IE because you never know what you're going to feel like eating. During my meal I craved the wunderbar. While going to grab it I saw all the other stuff I brought and told myself I would just take a bite of a couple of things. I had 2 cookies and a mini donut. Then I told myself I didn't deserve to have the chocolate bar too because that's excessive. Then I told myself no, it's fine. It's ok I probably won't finish it. I ate 3/4 and thought I should stop cause I was feeling full. I put the 1/4 away. Then couldn't stop thinking about it and ate it. So clearly I have a lot of work to do. I'm in the initial stages and am learning how to interact with my 'danger' foods and sometimes multiple at once. It's okay. I'm human. So what I ate 3 treats instead of one. Does that make me less of a person? Is it going to make me gain weight and in turn make me less of a person? No. no it's not so I can chill. I also don't feel sick or overfull at all.
Day 15/Snack - Cake
See this right here is intuitive eating. I missed my friends birthday on Monday and she brought me a small piece of cake. I am not going to say no to that! I don't have to! Yesterday I ate a small treat someone brought into work, and the day before I accepted a piece of licorice offered to me which is huge because I turned down everything offered to me at work for the last 3 years. When they offered I froze... I was SO USED to saying no I almost did and then was like yes... just say yes it's fine. I often would turn food down at the office just to binge on it when everyone left even if it wasn't good. None of that anymore!
Day 15/Meal 3 - Grilled cheese and salt and vinegar chips.
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